i.m. Paul Wood, d. 1999
By midday, gouts of fog
sock in until
we almost think the weather means some harm,
the way it spills over the harbor. Gauzy,
a trawler on its mooring
sputters close to home.
A level calm.
Seams smoothed, the clouded archway shadowless:
our view lacks eye-holds, like the papered set
of a photo shoot, merely
figure and ground.
This morning, as we slept,
his boat was found
grinding in circles somewhere near the reach.
A fisherman came on it stymied there,
recrossing in the spume
of its own wake, its wheelhouse
ghostly, its course
a ring by Titian charcoaled in the sea.
We knew his name. And when it made the news
the dust of pickups rose
to clog the road:
men set out dragging rigs
that yesterday
had yanked up heavy, bruised with mussel shells,
Phoenician purples clustered in a fist.
Today, they’re hoisted limp—
a heartache and relief.
One snarled clue:
some fouled line sliced from a sinking trap.
Had it jerked him in a whip-crack overboard,
strength sapped as he flailed
to loose his boat?
Now shoals of mackerel lash
in running shallows,
each silver leap skyward through glass survived.
Down on the point, a few last headlights glare,
then swing wide, then go.
I have come to the shore
to clean a pail,
while you close out the damp in half-lit rooms.
A year ago, we married near this spot,
where four white pine trees stare
over the bay.
All week, his wife can watch
hope’s half-life split
daily until the hour she knows he’s gone.
But for now: she looks on as he swims
ashore—“he’s strong, you know?”—
chokes breath on sand … No sign.
Word goes round,
as stories of near-misses start in town:
“Remember in the south, that killing gale?
After a second night,
with the helm
an icy sledgehammer
whanging my ribs,
I leaned down to your mother, who for days
could not look at the waves as high as roofs.
‘We’ll die out here,’ I told her,
letting the tiller go;
‘I’m so damn tired … ’
The wind was through with us two hours later.
Half-sunk, we made land under perfect skies,
boys out hauling nets
struck by the sun.”