I.
Father, I know this sea better than my blood.
Each night the waves invade, unattended,
storming this shore ceaselessly, shushing me
with authority I haven’t the strength
to oppose. And so I wait. And for what?
So that one night I may spy the glint
of moonlight on your sail and be forgotten?
Years of vigilance and it would come to this.
Better to brave the sea myself, lashing
kelp to driftwood, a makeshift ship to carry
me through another past, more familiar
than my own. Tell me, father, as I go,
who will wait for me to come home?
II.
This call that ministers to my need—
is it true? Will it follow me now,
out of the harbor and into the night?
I want only you, no adventure or fight,
but you, ready to be shouldered
and brought back to your beginning.
If I give you this voyage, will it suffice?
Or will you need more, a lifetime seeking
what I’ve never held? My accounts of you
are rendered only from the myth I am heir to.
Still, I sail on, not fearing what I’ll find.
It’s always been your power to persuade me,
father. But it’s mine alone to believe.
III.
The Hyades riding with the sun bear
omens of seas I’ll never sail through.
For all I know, you have returned.
But if my craft did find yours in this storm,
would you recognize me? Would you hoist me
up into your arms? I am too far gone now
to turn back. The same sea that sustains me
wrecks me here without you. I have never known
your counsel, but I beseech it now. This passage
is too terrible to weather alone.
Or maybe you are here already,
for here I have inherited your fate.
I am wanton, I’m at sea, I am home.